KNOXVILLE, Tenn. -- Chris Lofton has beaten the odds his entire life.
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Chris Lofton enjoyed a SEC regular-season championship less than one year after quietly beating cancer.
One
of the most prolific 3-point shooters in college basketball history,
Lofton can still recite all of the things he supposedly wouldn't or
couldn't do when he came out of Maysville, Ky., four years ago.
"Too short. Too slow. Not quick enough. Couldn't
dribble well enough. Couldn't play defense," Lofton rolls off with his
easy smile.
When it came time to pick a college, despite earning
the prestigious Mr. Basketball honor in the state of Kentucky, Lofton
was spurned by the two basketball powerhouses in that state -- Kentucky
and Louisville.
Undaunted, Lofton headed south and carved out a
record-setting career at Tennessee -- one that helped put the Vols back
on the basketball map. The 6-foot-2 guard, who looks about as
unassuming on the court as the team equipment manager until you see him
shoot the ball, was in many ways the face of the Vols' renaissance in
men's hoops. They won a school-record 31 games this past season,
vaulted to No. 1 in the polls for the first time in school history and
made their second straight Sweet 16 appearance.
It was truly a memorable career, one that Tennessee
coach Bruce Pearl guarantees will someday lead to the retiring of
Lofton's No. 5 jersey.
But Lofton's greatest conquest came off the court.
He beat cancer.
The
former three-time All-American, in an exclusive interview with
ESPN.com, revealed for the first time publicly that he played his
senior season at Tennessee after undergoing surgery to remove a
cancerous tumor from one of his testicles in March 2007.
I cried more this past year than I have my whole life combined. I cried a river this past year.
--Chris Lofton
He was diagnosed with cancer only a few days after Tennessee ended its
2006-07 season with a Sweet 16 loss to Ohio State in San Antonio.
Miraculously, the cancer was discovered after Lofton was picked
randomly following the first-round win over Long Beach State to submit
to an NCAA-mandated drug test. The results turned up positive, and
Tennessee officials weren't notified until the day of the Ohio State
game.
What nobody knew at the time, at least for certain, was that what actually showed up on that test was a tumor marker.
It's a test that might have saved Lofton's life.
"I
think it probably was a miracle because we don't do any test here [at
Tennessee] that would ever check that," said Chad Newman, Tennessee's
head basketball trainer.
After blood work and then an unltrasound revealed the
next Monday, four days after the Ohio State game, that Lofton indeed
had cancer, secretive surgery was scheduled two days later on March 28
at UT Medical Center. The surgery was done early that morning, and
Lofton's name never appeared on the board at the hospital. His parents
were discreetly taken into the hospital, and Pearl even came in
semi-disguise.
Lofton, who had ended so many other teams' dreams with
one of his patented step-back 3-pointers, was about to embark on the
fight of his life.
"I'm not a guy who cries a whole lot around people,"
said Lofton, who's now cancer-free and as determined as ever to pursue
a professional basketball career. "But I cried more this past year than
I have my whole life combined.
"I cried a river this past year."
Amazingly,
Lofton went through the entire ordeal -- the surgery, radiation
treatments, recovery and excruciating emotional distress -- with very
few people knowing.
It's the way he wanted it. An intensely private
person, he internalized everything and was hell-bent on nobody being
able to make excuses for him.
"That's just the way he is: a no-excuses kind of
fella," said Lofton's father, Franklin. "The worst part for us was not
being down there with him and everything he was going through, but
that's the way Chris wanted it. He knew if we were down there in
Knoxville all the time, people would be asking questions."
It was a very tight circle of people who knew. That
circle included Lofton's parents, the Tennessee coaches and medical
staff and a handful of others.
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Chris
Lofton's stellar career at Tennessee ended with a Sweet 16 loss to
Louisville. But the fact that he excelled at all during his senior
season was remarkable.
The only teammate Lofton told was fellow senior guard Jordan Howell, and that was late in the season. Lofton and Howell roomed together on the road.
Even Lofton's other family members -- aunts, uncles and cousins -- didn't know.
"It's
the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, but I know now there's
nothing out there I can't overcome," Lofton said. "I wanted to deal
with it on my terms because I didn't want it being a distraction for
our team. I knew if it came out, everything would change. I didn't want
it that way."
It was still hard for Lofton, a man of few words, to
come forward after the season. But he knew there was a good chance his
story might help others.
"I think God wanted people to hear my story. I think
that's what it was," Lofton said. "At first, I wanted to keep it to
myself. I didn't want to tell anybody, but then I realized that people
need to know, maybe to help them or maybe to help somebody else."
The 'miracle' diagnosis
Even now, Lofton finds himself wondering what would have happened had
he not been selected for the NCAA's random drug test following the win
over Long Beach State. The year before, he'd also been selected
following one of the Vols' NCAA tournament games, but nothing showed up
on that drug screening.
"Somebody was looking out for him," said Lofton's mother,
Kathleen. "Never has anybody been so blessed to be picked for a drug
test."
When Tennessee officials learned of Lofton's positive
drug test the day of the Ohio State game, they were in utter shock.
They decided not to tell Lofton or Pearl. At that point, they were
trying to discern whether Lofton might have unknowingly consumed
something in a protein shake or other supplement that would have
contained a banned substance on the NCAA's list.
What was found on the test were high levels of beta
hCG, which is found in women during pregnancy. It can signify steroid
use, and it is also a marker for cancer.
"Knowing Chris, we knew it had to be some sort of
abnormality," said Tennessee athletic director Mike Hamilton, who was
the first to receive the grim news in San Antonio.
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Chris
Lofton considered redshirting his senior season but returned for
Tennessee's first No. 1 ranking and an upset of then-No. 1 Memphis.
Tennessee
officials decided to tell Lofton and his parents about the positive
drug test in the wee hours of March 23, only a few hours after the Vols
lost a 17-point halftime lead in a heartbreaking 85-84 loss to Ohio
State.
They pulled the Loftons into a hotel room there in San Antonio to drop the bombshell. One of the scenarios discussed was cancer.
"Right
then and there, it was like it was the end of the world for me," said
Lofton, his eyes moistening. "I didn't know how to react, didn't know
how to respond. It was like it wasn't even me they were talking about.
I couldn't believe it. I mean, really, it was like the end of the
world.
"You didn't know about your basketball career, didn't
know if you were even going to be around to have a basketball career.
You hear cancer, and "
After flying back to Knoxville and doing additional tests, everybody's worst fear was confirmed.
Lofton had testicular cancer.
The
good news, though, was the form he had was a seminoma, which, according
to the National Cancer Institute, doesn't grow and spread as rapidly as
nonseminomas. Seminomas are also more sensitive to radiation, which was
the course of action doctors decided on following Lofton's surgery.
In vintage Lofton fashion, he wanted to get the
surgery over with as soon as possible so that he could resume working
out. He was naturally scared, but he was equally defiant.
Cancer wasn't going to beat him.
"I
just remembered my mom and dad telling me, 'It's all going to be OK.
Just pray about it and keep your faith,'" Lofton recalled. "You're
going to go through tough times. We all are. It's how you respond to
them that counts. It's how you get back up.
"You're going to get knocked down. It's whether you stay down or whether you get back up and fight that counts."
And make no mistake. Lofton had one hell of a fight on his hands.
The slow, painful recovery
It took Lofton about 10 days to feel good enough to be up and walking
around after the March 28 surgery. He couldn't do anything as far as
conditioning or working out for nearly a month.
"It was some of the worst pain I've ever gone through. All I could do was lie in the bed and watch movies," Lofton said.
His
radiation treatments began on April 25 and continued through May 21. It
was a daily ritual for Lofton and Newman. They met Monday through
Friday and went to the hospital together for his 4:30 p.m. treatment.
Lofton chose the afternoon treatment so that he might be able to do
some basketball-related work in the morning.
Remember, you're talking about a guy who shoots for an
hour by himself after everybody else is long gone from practice. He's
also been known to do a second weight-lifting workout later at night
after doing the one with the team earlier in the day.
The gym and weight room are his cathedral.
But
even Lofton was no match for the radiation treatments and their
nauseating side effects. The treatments included Lofton's entire
midsection because doctors wanted to make sure the cancer didn't spread
into the lymph nodes.
"The first couple times, I was like, 'This is nothing. I can do this easy,'" Lofton remembered.
A week later, he was curled up in bed with a trash can by his side, all the while wondering what he'd done to deserve this.
"I'm
lying in bed, couldn't move and puking everywhere," Lofton said. "I'd
call Chad and tell him, 'I'm hurting. I can't do this.' Chad was always
there for me. He just kept telling me that I was going to make it. I
don't know what I would have done without him."
While Newman was Lofton's lifeline in Knoxville, his
parents were his rock via phone. They talked every night, his mom and
dad passing the phone back and forth and wiping away tears as fast as
they could.
"I cried myself to sleep a lot of times talking to
them on the phone," Lofton said. "You're by yourself and there's really
nothing anybody can do. You just have to deal with it. My mom and dad
kept me strong. They gave me passages out of the Bible to read to help
keep me strong. We all leaned on our faith."
Lofton's radiation treatments were the most
heartbreaking time for his mother, who was 235 miles away and knowing
her only child was suffering.
"It's the most difficult thing I've ever had to face,"
said Kathleen Lofton, who still gets choked up talking about it.
"Anybody who has children knows, and when there's really nothing you
can do it's the worst feeling you can have.
"If I could have taken the cancer myself, I would have."
Lofton still remembers his last treatment like it was yesterday.
"It
was the best day of my life," he beamed. "I just thanked God for
everything. He let me play basketball this year, and that is my life.
It's all I ever wanted to do."
Back on the court
Pearl discussed the possibility of redshirting Lofton, who considered
it. Ultimately, the senior-to-be simply couldn't see himself missing
out on his final season when the Vols were being picked by everybody to
be a national contender.
"I had to be there for them," he said. "They would have been there for me."
Still,
Lofton admittedly was a long way from being where he was when his
junior season ended, one in which he led the SEC in scoring at 20.8
points per game and earned SEC Player of the Year honors.
He lost nearly 15 pounds and weighed less than 190
pounds for the first time since he was in high school. More important,
he'd lost all of his strength.
"You've got to remember that I missed a whole month or
more of basketball. I couldn't do anything, run, shoot, work out,
anything," Lofton said. "I didn't really start working out until June."
Then came the trials for the U.S. Pan Am team in July.
Lofton knew he wasn't anywhere close to being ready, but he swallowed
his pride and went.
Sure enough, he was just a glimmer of the player who lit up the SEC as a junior, and was cut.
"I
should have never gone to the Pan Am trials. I knew what was going to
happen," Lofton said. "I was so weak. That was really a downer."
The Vols went on their European tour in August, and
Lofton was still working his way back into shape. And even when the
regular season began in November, he could tell something was missing.
"I was coming off my best season," said Lofton, the
SEC's all-time leader with 431 3-pointers and third all-time on the
NCAA's list. "But I just couldn't play to that level again. I had some
good moments, but I didn't play as well as I expected, to my standards
anyway, or as well as my team needed me to."
In particular, he noticed himself getting winded at
points in the game he never used to in the past. He also didn't have
that same explosiveness to the basket. That was the part of his game
that he took to the next level as a junior.
The mental part, though, was the most difficult roadblock.
"It
was in my head a lot, and maybe that affected me," Lofton said. "I just
know I couldn't move the way I wanted to. It was like my body wouldn't
let me."
Leaving his mark
Lofton's numbers went down -- his scoring average and shooting
percentages. Part of that was Tennessee's having more balance on
offense, but he also started the season by going 6-of-28 from the field
in his first three games.
Heading into SEC play on Jan. 9, he was shooting just 34.3
percent from the field. Yet, when the Vols needed him most during the
stretch run to their first outright SEC championship since 1967, Lofton
was there to save them on multiple occasions.
"For a time, I was asked about Chris Lofton pretty
much every day," Pearl said, "and while knowing the underlying reasons
of what was going on, I had to respect his wishes and his privacy. To
answer that question now, with everything out, no, Chris wasn't quite
the same. I don't think there's any question that the cancer, the
treatment, the loss in strength all of those definitely were a
factor.
"But what I also can tell you is this: That jersey,
No. 5, is going to be hanging in the rafters in Thompson-Boling Arena,
joining Ernie Grunfeld and Bernard King and Dale Ellis or Allan Houston
to follow. No. 5 is going to be there. Chris Lofton leaves his mark in
such a way as a Volunteer to have overcome this, to have not hidden and
to have not allowed it to beat him."
And through it all, the few people who knew what Lofton was going through never heard him make the first excuse.
"I've
watched people battle through different things at different levels, but
this touched me as much as anything," Newman said. "For a kid so
genuinely good to get this, I just couldn't believe it. That's what
made it so hard, because I simply couldn't be a guy that was down. I
had to be positive for Chris.
"I was mentally and physically exhausted, and I can't imagine what it was like for Chris."
Cancer-free
Lofton has been in for regular checkups, and the cancer has not spread.
He is now cancer-free, Newman said, but he'll have to continue to be
monitored for the rest of his life.
Pearl has talked to several NBA executives he trusts, and
they've assured him that Lofton's cancer won't be a factor as far as
his being drafted or making a team. In fact, Denver Nuggets forward
Nene went through a similar ordeal this past season, and after missing
2 months, was back with the team on a limited basis.
"I have unbelievable respect for the guy," said
Newman, who went with Lofton to all but one of his treatments. "I was
just amazed at how he could come through this and be so private about
it. What makes it even more amazing is that he continued to play at a
high level in such a stressful situation, and even though it was subpar
for him for a while, he took it in stride and kept going."
Lofton admits that he did his best not to listen when
anybody in the media, or even fans, were discussing his shooting slump
early in the season or talking about his not being the same player.
"I just told myself that no matter what happens, I'm
going to leave it all out on the floor," he said. "I didn't care what
people said about me or wrote about me."
He just recently told some of his closest friends in Maysville about his cancer and jokes that their reaction was predictable.
"They were like, 'Man, I could tell something was wrong with you,'" Lofton said.
After
attending Tennessee's team banquet on Friday night, Lofton plans to
spend some quiet time with his parents the next few weeks back home.
He's waiting on an invite to the NBA's pre-draft camp in Orlando.
He said much of his resolve this past year came from
his parents. His dad works at a power plant and his mother is a middle
school teacher.
They attended most of Lofton's games this past season,
home and away, and would typically drive all night afterward to get
back home and be at work the next morning.
"That's how I was raised," Lofton said. "You show up for work every day no matter what."
Lofton's
father was reminded recently of what he told former Tennessee coach
Buzz Peterson during an in-home visit when the Vols were recruiting
Lofton.
They were out in the Loftons' front yard when Franklin
Lofton looked at Peterson and said very matter of factly, "You won't
get one just like my son. He's special."
We all know now just how special.